Luke's first sickness!!

Well, it finally happened. Luke is sick. Actually, it's pretty good that he waited this long to get the crud. Four months old with no sickness in a preemie is really good. Anyhoo, he had a well baby visit today that turned into a sick baby visit. He got a breathing treatment to see if it would clear up this yucky congestion he has going on, but it didn't help. The doc said it was bronchialitis (yeah, I never heard of that either...supposedly it is a little different from actual bronchitis). Basically, he has infection in his bronchial lining. In an adult or older child this would just be a plain ol' cold, and he probably got it from someone who had a cold or was exposed to it, but in a baby it is different. We are just hoping that there will be NO signs of RSV!! He is getting a Synagis shot every month to ward it off so hopefully this infection will just remain "as is". He put Luke on a liquid steroid for three days but said his cough could last for up to 4 to 5 weeks!!! Yuck!! Also, he couldn't get his vaccines today so we will have to go back and get them in a couple of weeks. But, it wasn't all bad today! Luke now weighs....drum roll, please....
16 pounds 8 ounces!!!!! Holy Cow!! Also, he is 24 inches long!! YAY!! Dr. Gleason told us that he is NO LONGER be measured on the "preemie growth chart"! AND that on the term baby growth chart is is measuring in the 75th percentile in weight! OH MY GOODNESS, I HAVE A BABY LINEBACKER!! Dr. Gleason is SO impressed with our little man! Also, he is measuring in the 25th percentile in length! The doc said he would be off the charts on the preemie chart!! WOW! When he was first born they thought he would have to be on the preemie chart for up to a year, but he is growing so fast. He is doing great! He also is meeting all the benchmarks for a full term 4 month old except for reaching out and grabbing objects. And he said this will be coming soon! He should technically only be doing things that a 2 month old does, but he is right on track with other 4 month olds! AND the doc said that he should be completely caught up by the time he turns 6 months old, NOT one year old! We can start him on foods in the next month and a half, plus he said that he will probably go ahead and take him off the NeoSure preemie formula at around 6 months old. They usually want them to stay on till they are 9 months, so this is awesome! God has blessed us with such a healthy baby and I am SOOOOO thankful! We also got some prescription gas drops, so pray that they will help! So, even in spite of his yucky sickness, you will hear no griping or moaning from me today!! My baby is healthy, wonderful, beautiful, fantastic, incredible, and amazing so I am just sending out happy vibes today! I hope everyone enjoyed the nice Alabama weather God gave us today and I will post again soon!

Frazzled

Tonight I am frazzled. I feel as though I have not stopped today, or yesterday, or the day before! Do you ever feel as though you are running a race daily and the finish line is nowhere in sight? That is me tonight. I have a baby that is congested and wheezing and gassy. Not a good combination. I have a husband that comes home and plays video games and asks what we are doing for dinner. I have children in my class that know no boundaries at home and I get to try to teach them right from wrong. I have a weigh in at Weight Watchers on Wednesday and I have eaten Mexican three times, yes three times, this week. I finally had time to actually shave my legs tonight in the shower. That was scary. In the middle of cooking some dinner I realized we were out of baby cereal and Luke was screaming because he was starving so I had to leave it to go buy some because the Pig closes at nine and it was 8:30. Then I realized I was out of gas. Another stop. It's just been one of those days. One of those weeks. One of those months. It's like it never ends and all I do is gripe and moan about how hard it is. I swear the Lexapro ain't working lately! I feel like a hamster on its wheel going round and round. I also think I had a slight panic attack on Sunday. It was over something soooo stupid and I felt like it was the most important all-consuming thing. I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest and I got tight all over! I've never had a panic attack but it sure felt like it could have been one. Do you ever feel like you are being pulled in 100 different directions and that 100 different people want 100 different things from you? That's me lately. I just feel so uptight and my poor husband is catching the brunt of it. I can be so mean to him. Why do I do that? I love him and he is a good daddy, but I feel like sometimes he has it so easy. That I have to do everything. But I also realized tonight that even when he offers to help, I have trouble giving up control. He offered to feed Luke and to sleep with him in the living room so I can have a real night's sleep. I worried that he wouldn't do our nighttime routine the right way. I told him how he should hold him to get him to sleep. I made him promise that he would not sleep with him on his chest because he was congested and I didn't want him becoming face down because I feared that he would suffocate. I told him he did not need to put him in the swing because then he (Tom) would be in such a deep sleep b/c Luke wasn't laying on him that he would not be able to hear him when he cried. See, I have to control it. I want to gripe about not getting help, but when it's offered I want to control it and have Tom do it MY way. The right way. At least I think it's the right way. I know I fret a lot over Luke but he is my first baby and he had a rough go his first few months and to be honest, I feel like I can take care of him better than Tom. Isn't that awful to say?? And I don't mind letting Tom know that. I'm mean to him and I need to stop. I have to get off this craziness and start learning how to say no to people and start focusing on what is important - my family. I couldn't make it without my husband. I really, really couldn't. I need to let go of my need for control. And I really, really need to go to bed now. Sleep is sounding so good right now.....

 

 

 

Here is Luke next to a picture of his daddy when he was six or seven months old! Cute! Also, here is Luke with his Nonna and a picture of Monkey in his favorite spot...daddy's lap (well, at least it is his favorite when mommy's isn't available!!).

 

Tom's Bumbo helmet...Yes, this is who I chose to marry....he's having wayyyy too much fun with the baby toys!!

 

 

 

 

My baby is getting so big!!!! Dang, he's cute!!

 

 

 

Our friend let us have her Bumbo and we have had so much fun with it!!

 

 

 

Fun with Sock Monkey!!

 

Hey bebba....your crib or mine?? Luke totally looks like a lounge lizard here! Tom refuses to button up his onesies all the way because he thinks he will choke cause his neck is so tubby!!

Back to work already??

So I went back to work today. I also dropped Luke off at his babysitter's for the first time today and yes, I cried! Even though Kathryn (his sitter) is a total God-send to me and Tom, I was so sad leaving him today! Monkey and I have spent the last two months getting to know each other and now I don't get to see him for 8 hours day!! It's hard and I know I am gonna miss so much. Kathryn said he did so well today! She said she barely heard him cry, but I know she probably did not even put him down! He is soooo rotten! She really is gonna hurt herself carrying that big boy around!! He waited till he got home to be moody...I think he does well during the day, but at night he has pretty much had enough and he gets fussy! My students don't come back until tomorrow so today was all about getting my room back in order after Christmas and attending a few staff meetings. My sub really did a great job and even had stuff laid out for us to do this week!! :) WOW!! Kristy...if you are reading this THANK YOU!!
Oh it was a struggle getting up this morning and getting ready!! But, thankfully, I have the coolest husband in the world, and he gets up at 6 to get the baby changed, fed, and ready so I only have to focus on getting myself ready! I am a lucky woman!!! I really hope my kids are able to quickly adjust back to me...I'm hoping for NO discipline problems this week and I am ready to get them going on their reading!! I can't believe it is already January! I feel like I have not been able to be there for my students much the first half of the year, so I have a lot of catching up to do with them. I am going to focus on structure, structure, structure! Because of the circumstances surrounding Luke, they have not had much structure so far. So I HAVE to get it together for them and GET BUSY getting them ready for first grade!! Well, gotta go get monkey to sleep.....morning will be here soon!!