Wednesday, November 12, 2008
WE ARE HOME!!!
YAY! Luke made it through his countdown and his family room night and we have monkey HOME!! Am I scared?? YES! Am I nervous?? YES!! Am I paranoid?? YES! Am I exhausted?? YES!! Am I happy?? YESSSSSSSS! Thank you for everyone leaving sweet comments about our last night in the NICU. Everyone was so wonderful there, but I have to say...I never want to go back!! Only to visit Luke's NICU buddies - that's the only reason I will be back! Guys, I am so overwhelmed by everything! I don't really know if I'm coming or going ~ there is soooo much I am worried about! Because I am absolutely psychotic (just ask my husband, he'll tell you) I spent the night before last online at the SIDS research institute website reading memorials on sweet angel babies! Crazy, I know. Why oh why do I do it? Now, my mind is filled with the horrors of SIDS. I want a monitor. I want it to beep really really loud if he ever quits breathing, even for a second. I want a NICU nurse to live with me. I want to live in a bubble where nothing bad happens to my child or any other person's child. I want God to know that I would never be able to stand losing Luke. Ever. See what being up for almost 24 hours does to my feeble little mind?? Enough of the bad thoughts....Luke Rocks! He is the cutest thing ever created!! He makes the sweetest little grunts! He sounds like a baby goat!! I love it! Tom has to go back to work tomorrow, so it's me and monkey by ourselves. EEKKK! I probably won't even put him down. I don't have anything to do here because my bestest friend Jennifer came over yesterday and deep cleaned my house for me!! It's soooo clean and I love her for it! She is like a cleaning nazi!! She gets a natural high from cleaning and is manic about things being ubercleaned. With a preemie in the house, this is a very very good thing! I've got the best friends ever! I love you guys....I will post some pics tomorrow showing our last day at the NICU and our ride home! Wish me luck tonight and say a big ol' prayer for all of us!!